Missing Someone So Much...

Sometimes I feel Scott standing in the doorway. His presense is palpable and it's as if he never left. I feel his energy, his wit, his warmth. I hear his laughter echoing through the rooms. I feel his comforting embrace when I need it the most..

But he did leave. He didn't want to fly to the stars yet. Cancer made that decision for him.

I never knew you could miss someone so much. Even as a poet drawing images of my broken heart, no words could come close to describing how I feel. Sometimes the pain is still so fresh. But I keep trying. Not to share any specific sentiment, or idea. Just to share...

Maybe my words will touch someone on the shoulder to say you are not alone. I have been there. I know what it's like, all too well. Even though our experiences are different, we may meet with no words needed. We know the silent pain of losing someone to cancer..

Maybe I can give someone courage to write some words of their own. A poem doesn't have to be shared unless the writer is comfortable doing so. Simply writing gives comfort. It doesn't have to be clean. It doesn't have to be positive. It can be real and raw. Because when you get down to it, illness and loss are all too real and raw.

I miss Scott so much my heart aches with a depth of pain I could never express. One word at a time I write and remember my dear love..