The Winds Of Change

The hurricane force winds blew cancer into my life; not once, but twice. My warmest coat still does not take away the wind chill that comes and goes. I will never be able to rake up all of the debris left behind. It is simply too much and too painful..

The gale force winds blew away my wonderful, familiar world and scattered it for miles. Most of the pieces unrecognizable and unfamiliar. I walked around in a daze feeling lost, calling Scott's name, like a tornado survivor scanning the old neighborhood.

I couldn't find anything to hold onto that reminded me of my beautiful life I once lived. But there was a point in my grief, where I realized that Scott was still with me. The horrible winds caused so much damage, but they did not damage my memories, or the gift of his love which still wraps me in comfort and understanding.

Winds blow through our lives, sometimes causing tremdous damage, sometimes just moving the leaves a little. It's all about change in one degree or another. Cancer caused big changes and all the emotions that surround this terrible disease. Losing Scott was a huge change in my life, but I can look back and say that I found true love. Some people never do.

The winds of change came through, brought cancer and moved on. You can never prepare yourself for the winds of change, but maybe you can find some peace one word at a time.